You understand your patterns & behaviors.

You know where they came from.

You’ve probably spent years working on yourself.

But every time the intensity goes up, work gets demanding, the bills pile up, the calendar gets packed, your relationships need more from you, and suddenly you’re stretched too fucking thin, you become a version of yourself you don’t even want to look at in the mirror.

Every. Single. Time.

You shut down when you want to speak.

Reach for control when you want to surrender.

You raise your voice and say things you don’t really mean.

Pull away when intimacy gets too close.

Abandon what you want to keep someone else comfortable.

Or know exactly what you should do and still find yourself repeating the

same fucking pattern.

And that’s the frustrating part.

You already see it ALL.

You know where you need to grow. You know which patterns aren’t serving you. You might even know exactly where they came from.

But knowing yourself and cognitively understanding your habits and behaviors hasn’t been enough to change what happens when the pressure is actually on.

Because there’s a difference between understanding what you do…

and having practiced another way of being enough that you can actually access it when it matters most. 

You don’t need another explanation for why you are the way you are.

You need somewhere to practice becoming who you want to be.

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So what does that actually look like?

  • 4-Hour Session

    $5,000

    What happens if you stop thinking and actually let yourself experience? This sensual, playful in-person container utilizes BDSM and bodywork for an intense, immediate, embodied somatic experience. Here you gain evidence. Evidence that you can drop into your body. Evidence that intensity doesn't have to equal danger. Evidence that being deeply witnessed can feel different.

  • 3-Month Container

    $10,000-$15,000

    This experience will thoroughly uncover and help process a single daunting traumatic experience via BDSM and bodywork. For clients who don't need to intellectualize this anymore and want to actually process it.

  • 6-Month Container

    $30,000-$50,000
    *Includes unlimited texting and voice message support with Shelby

    An emotionally corrective experience that teaches your body it doesn't have to keep choosing what is familiar over what is possible. Get out of your own way and learn how to suffer better. Re-imprint trauma so that your safety patterns don’t inhibit your ability to develop deep relationships with yourself and others. You don't want your old survival patterns determining the ceiling of your relationships, intimacy, or life anymore. You're ready to relate differently.

  • 8-Hour Session

    $6,000
    *Advanced Offering

    Part ceremony, part seduction, part initiation.
    An erotic psychedelic experience that creates space for altered states and intentional power exchange woven together into something that cannot be fully described.
    You will be opened slowly, deliberately, completely by someone who knows exactly what they are doing with the territory of your edges.

    *This offering includes x1 60-minute preparation call pre-session, all materials and ceremonial elements, professional facilitation, and x1 60-minute integration call following the experience.

    *Please Note: This work requires an extreme level of maturity, mutual compatibility between practitioner and client, commitment to preparation, and mutual resonance around the nature of my work.

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Every encounter with me is intentional.

Instead of talking about your patterns after the fact, we work with them in real time, live, as they’re happening in the session.

I help deeply self-aware people experience themselves differently, so the patterns they’ve already spent years understanding no longer get to run their lives.

I’ll take you somewhere you haven’t been. I’ll stay with you while you’re there.

And when it gets hard, I won’t let you get stuck, collapse, withdraw, or abandon yourself.

Gain more access to your body, more turn on, more capacity for pleasure, a juicier relationship with desire, more emotional range, and a stronger relationship with your power.

With me, you practice asking for what you want, holding your boundaries, expressing your truth, staying present in the face of discomfort, and accessing your power in the moments it matters most.